11TH AUGUST, 2008
Plugs: Nicole; Kerri; Fatima; Heather; Nicolah

I wrote some more on my future book today. And I realised something. The human psyche is an interesting, and very dark place. I realised this when I was writing, and Hurt by Christina Aguilera came onto the radio. And I wrote some stuff that I really liked, and will really help my story along. The song makes me cry. Then that led me to wondering. Is it really true that the best creations come from really dark, depressing places? I always find that I write really well if I listen to depressing music, and am crying or on the verge of. Or is it because then I'm in a frame of mind where I don't care to censor myself, and just let it all out? Who knows? I saw Dark Knight last Tuesday, and that's what got me thinking. It's just a movie. It's just a character. But it's the most interesting character I have ever seen Heath Ledger portray. So deep, and different, and dark (for lack of a better word). And it made me wonder what places inside him he went to, to be able to play the role so well. The little mannerisms, the touches, it just wasn't my Heath Ledger up there. He truly was something else. There wasn't a trace of the Heath I knew and loved. He was gone. And now, he really is gone. And that makes me wonder. Is it possible to let our psyche, our emotions, be too free? Is there a point when they take over, and there's nothing else? With writing, it's different. For now, at least. I'm able to seperate myself from the characters. But will there be a time, especially if I keep writing, that their reality will become mine? Is that what took over Heath? Maybe he was predisposed to darkness, and the dark knight claimed another victim.

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